"He must become greater, and I must become less important."
As I read this, I began to pray,
"God, Daddy, show me how to do this. Please show me how to make you more important than myself."
And then he reminded me of a scripture from the sermon this morning:
John 6:29 -- "The work of God is this: to believe in the one he has sent."
I have always been "do" oriented. And now, as the rain hits the top of the tin roof and my siblings watch a Western with Robert Duvall in the glass porch, God is teaching me to be "be" oriented. He is teaching me that when I do do something for Him, it is not because He is going to be displeased with me if I don't. I am doing whatever it is because of who HE is and the love that HE has for me and those around. HE wants me to believe. HE wants my belief to compel to do things in His name for others, for His glory. And not out of fear of disappointing Him, or anyone else for that matter.
When I do do something for someone else, it will be with the Kingdom in mind. It will be with the mindset of how it will impact eternity. That is how HE will become greater and I will become less important.
That is how I will become a wonder-struck daughter who loves her Father-King because of who HE is and not because of what HE can do for her.
Sunday, October 6, 2013
Tuesday, August 13, 2013
A Letter to Mommies
In God's eyes, you are beautiful.
You lack in nothing because your Heavenly Father is at work within you. You are full. Full of what He has given you, of what He has made you to be. You are radiant.
As a daughter of the King, never doubt yourself. Our King puts his princesses where they ought to be to do what He has blessed them with.
Our King, our God, and LORD, will be your perfect Father forever. What He has asked you to do, He is not going to leave you alone to fail.
Cry out "LORD! Help!" when you can't feel His presence. As a Mommy, you would never leave a child when they call out to you for help. God will answer you just the same. Talk to Him.
God knows everything. He knows what you don't know full well. Close your eyes. Curl up in His lap. And ask your Daddy the questions that have been haunting you. There is no question that He does not have an answer to. Because He knows EVERYTHING, we can trust Him and rest in Him.
He loves you. And He holds you. Wether you realize it or not.
As a daughter to an amazing mother, my prayer for her, and every mother (with or without children of her own) who is living in God's will, is that you will know that you are freakin-stinkin-amazing women. Know that. Accept that. Y'all are awesome. And don't let the devil beat you over the head and tell you other wise! Because, as the father of lies, that is all the devil knows how to do. So know that that is not the truth. And that this is what is the truth:
You are a Saint in blue jeans.
You are a Beauty Queen with waist length gray hair.
You are a Model with a burp clothe on your shoulder.
You are a Race Car Driver in a Mommy car.
And you are a Princess in the Kingdom of God!
Hallelujah!
Mommies, please remember, I love you.
God loves you.
And I pray that I can be you when I grow up.
Thank you for being you.
Because that is just who God created you to be.
YOU.
And no one else.
You are Hope.
You are Joy.
You are Faith.
You are Grace.
You are Mercy.
You are Strength.
You are Laughter.
You are Gentleness.
You are Kindness.
You are Giving.
You lack in nothing because your Heavenly Father is at work within you. You are full. Full of what He has given you, of what He has made you to be. You are radiant.
As a daughter of the King, never doubt yourself. Our King puts his princesses where they ought to be to do what He has blessed them with.
Our King, our God, and LORD, will be your perfect Father forever. What He has asked you to do, He is not going to leave you alone to fail.
Cry out "LORD! Help!" when you can't feel His presence. As a Mommy, you would never leave a child when they call out to you for help. God will answer you just the same. Talk to Him.
God knows everything. He knows what you don't know full well. Close your eyes. Curl up in His lap. And ask your Daddy the questions that have been haunting you. There is no question that He does not have an answer to. Because He knows EVERYTHING, we can trust Him and rest in Him.
He loves you. And He holds you. Wether you realize it or not.
As a daughter to an amazing mother, my prayer for her, and every mother (with or without children of her own) who is living in God's will, is that you will know that you are freakin-stinkin-amazing women. Know that. Accept that. Y'all are awesome. And don't let the devil beat you over the head and tell you other wise! Because, as the father of lies, that is all the devil knows how to do. So know that that is not the truth. And that this is what is the truth:
You are a Saint in blue jeans.
You are a Beauty Queen with waist length gray hair.
You are a Model with a burp clothe on your shoulder.
You are a Race Car Driver in a Mommy car.
And you are a Princess in the Kingdom of God!
Hallelujah!
Mommies, please remember, I love you.
God loves you.
And I pray that I can be you when I grow up.
Thank you for being you.
Because that is just who God created you to be.
YOU.
And no one else.
Monday, August 5, 2013
because DADDY said i could
I backed my truck up to a trailer for the first time this afternoon. I was nervous when I first learned that I would need to for my daddy. I asked him, "I have to back the truck up to the trailer?" And he replied, "Yeah, but you can do it." I backed the truck through our dirt yard down to the little blue barn today and got it lined up with the trailer on the first try. I knew I could do it because Daddy had said that I could.
God does the same thing with all of us that are His children. I was able to back that truck up to the trailer because before I started driving FORWARD, Daddy taught me how to back with my mirrors. And he said every now and then, it's okay to turn around and look through the back window. But only when you are backing a trailer or backing up to a trailer. I was able to do what Daddy needed me to do because he has prepared me, taught me, shown me, and encouraged me. God does the exact same thing! He teaches us how to do something and has something awesome up His sleeve for later! We don't know why He wants us to do some things right now, but later on we will find out! He is preparing us constantly. He is always teaching us and showing us how to do what He wants us to do. My Daddy was patient in teaching me how to back with my mirrors at 14 and 15 years old. He was determined that his girls would know how to back....with their mirrors....in our 15 passengers van. And so we did. God is determined to give us what is best. And sometimes that can take a while. Some lessons are hard to learn, but they are worth it. Always.
Right now, it may feel like God is trying to teach you to swing dance backwards with rain coming down and the floods coming up. Maybe He is. But you can get through those waters because God is your dance partner and you have to let Him lead. When you back, it helps a whole lot when someone is standing at the back f your vehicle directing you. Let God do that. Let Him lead you. Let Him direct you. Talk to Him. Feel His Holy Spirit holding you. You are His child. He wants you to sit in His lap and rest in Him.
Jeremiah 6:16
God does the same thing with all of us that are His children. I was able to back that truck up to the trailer because before I started driving FORWARD, Daddy taught me how to back with my mirrors. And he said every now and then, it's okay to turn around and look through the back window. But only when you are backing a trailer or backing up to a trailer. I was able to do what Daddy needed me to do because he has prepared me, taught me, shown me, and encouraged me. God does the exact same thing! He teaches us how to do something and has something awesome up His sleeve for later! We don't know why He wants us to do some things right now, but later on we will find out! He is preparing us constantly. He is always teaching us and showing us how to do what He wants us to do. My Daddy was patient in teaching me how to back with my mirrors at 14 and 15 years old. He was determined that his girls would know how to back....with their mirrors....in our 15 passengers van. And so we did. God is determined to give us what is best. And sometimes that can take a while. Some lessons are hard to learn, but they are worth it. Always.
Right now, it may feel like God is trying to teach you to swing dance backwards with rain coming down and the floods coming up. Maybe He is. But you can get through those waters because God is your dance partner and you have to let Him lead. When you back, it helps a whole lot when someone is standing at the back f your vehicle directing you. Let God do that. Let Him lead you. Let Him direct you. Talk to Him. Feel His Holy Spirit holding you. You are His child. He wants you to sit in His lap and rest in Him.
Jeremiah 6:16
This is what the Lord says:
“Stand at the crossroads and look;
ask for the ancient paths,
ask where the good way is, and walk in it,
and you will find rest for your souls."
ask for the ancient paths,
ask where the good way is, and walk in it,
and you will find rest for your souls."
Saturday, July 20, 2013
A Piece of Summer in a Paragraph - Mission:Rome
This summer has probably been the busiest of my life. And I am not saying that to be dramatic. I am being serious. But everything that occupied my days were good things. Everything that I did, babysitting, going camp and on a mission trip, VBS, were wonderful. In all of that God has really been working on me. He has been teaching me a lot.
This piece of my summer was just five days. But it was five days of hard work, laughter, food, sweat, bug bites, and Jesus.
I have made new friends and God has grown the old ones. I "went" on my first all college mission trip. A mission trip in your home town may not sound that glamorous, and it wasn't. But it was full of Jesus. We raked yards and smacked mosquitoes off each other's backsides. We pulled weeds and each swallowed our fair share of bug spray. We all made sure the other one drank enough water and took a sigh of sweet relief when someone showed up at the work site with Happy Hour! From Sonic, that is! (this was a Baptist mission trip) ;) We jammed and packed and pushed and squeezed and shoved Andy's truck bed until it was about to pop for the bags of leaves and brush in it. Then we unloaded it all into the dumpster while it was raining Cats and Dogs. And Birds and Bees. And Giraffes and Zebras. And lightning like Thomas Edison was in town or something! I was like, "Seriously?! Now?" But, like anything, we all laughed and kept working. On this same mission trip, God blessed me with time with a friend. Before this she was my friend. She was someone I knew I could pour my heart out to, and had. She was someone I could call and she would drop everything and come running. But now she is a friend who I can giggle with. She payed for my ice cream and then I payed for her supper. I had to wrestle with her in order to keep the ticket away from her at Steak 'n Shake. The day I felt bad on the mission trip I wasn't embarrassed to tell her and then ask her to drive home. She holds and carries herself like a woman. And yet, deep in her heart I can see this little blonde haired girl playing in a sundress. Smassey is a beautiful woman, inside and out, that knows how to be a little girl. She knows when to get excited and giggle. She knows when to be serious and get down to business. She is, I think without realizing it, teaching me these things. With her actions, she has shown me how to be deliberate in my conversations with others. Smassey is a gift. And that is what God has given me a lot of this summer: gifts from Him.
He often gives us gifts. We just don't realize that they are gifts. Or maybe we do and we just don't realize they're from Him. Looking back over this summer I can see gifts that He has given me. I am s thankful that He chose to give them to me. Some of them hurt when He gave them to me. I didn't want them. I was like, "Uh, that's okay God. You can take that back." But He didn't. And I am so glad that He didn't. He just kept working on me. He kept being patient with me. He kept giving time. And Scripture. And sermons.
If God is trying to give you a gift that you know you need but you know is going to hurt, take it. Take it and let it change you. Let it heal you. Let Him move you and hold you.
This piece of my summer was just five days. But it was five days of hard work, laughter, food, sweat, bug bites, and Jesus.
I have made new friends and God has grown the old ones. I "went" on my first all college mission trip. A mission trip in your home town may not sound that glamorous, and it wasn't. But it was full of Jesus. We raked yards and smacked mosquitoes off each other's backsides. We pulled weeds and each swallowed our fair share of bug spray. We all made sure the other one drank enough water and took a sigh of sweet relief when someone showed up at the work site with Happy Hour! From Sonic, that is! (this was a Baptist mission trip) ;) We jammed and packed and pushed and squeezed and shoved Andy's truck bed until it was about to pop for the bags of leaves and brush in it. Then we unloaded it all into the dumpster while it was raining Cats and Dogs. And Birds and Bees. And Giraffes and Zebras. And lightning like Thomas Edison was in town or something! I was like, "Seriously?! Now?" But, like anything, we all laughed and kept working. On this same mission trip, God blessed me with time with a friend. Before this she was my friend. She was someone I knew I could pour my heart out to, and had. She was someone I could call and she would drop everything and come running. But now she is a friend who I can giggle with. She payed for my ice cream and then I payed for her supper. I had to wrestle with her in order to keep the ticket away from her at Steak 'n Shake. The day I felt bad on the mission trip I wasn't embarrassed to tell her and then ask her to drive home. She holds and carries herself like a woman. And yet, deep in her heart I can see this little blonde haired girl playing in a sundress. Smassey is a beautiful woman, inside and out, that knows how to be a little girl. She knows when to get excited and giggle. She knows when to be serious and get down to business. She is, I think without realizing it, teaching me these things. With her actions, she has shown me how to be deliberate in my conversations with others. Smassey is a gift. And that is what God has given me a lot of this summer: gifts from Him.
He often gives us gifts. We just don't realize that they are gifts. Or maybe we do and we just don't realize they're from Him. Looking back over this summer I can see gifts that He has given me. I am s thankful that He chose to give them to me. Some of them hurt when He gave them to me. I didn't want them. I was like, "Uh, that's okay God. You can take that back." But He didn't. And I am so glad that He didn't. He just kept working on me. He kept being patient with me. He kept giving time. And Scripture. And sermons.
If God is trying to give you a gift that you know you need but you know is going to hurt, take it. Take it and let it change you. Let it heal you. Let Him move you and hold you.
Sunday, June 23, 2013
When Love Is Heard
There is a first time for everything. This past semester God taught me a lot about listening. Listening for Him. Hearing Him. And then obeying Him. He taught what His voice sounds like. It is the most solid sound that has ever entered my mind.
It is also the sweetest sound.
The best sound.
It is comforting.
It is challenging, often times asking me to do what I would rather not.
My flesh begins to fight. My gut says no.
My mind says, "This what God wants. DO IT."
My heart is willing because there with the Holy Spirit, it knows what is right.
He has taught to pray. Really pray.
At camp with our youth, I was privileged, and I mean really privileged, to witness over 100 students worshipping their Creator. They would raise their hands. Or bow their heads. Lie on the floor in reverence, or be on their knees in awe of their Savior.
As I stood in the back of the auditorium and looked and really saw what was happening in front of me, I couldn't help but praise God for what He was doing in the hearts and minds of these teenagers. Of the next generation.
As I stood and watched, I prayed.
I prayed that God would talk to them. That they would talk to God.
I prayed that they would listen.
And that they would hear from God Almighty.
And praise God, they did!
The last day of camp, as we sat half awake eating Cheerio's and pancakes in the dining hall, a staffer asked the students sitting at our table to share something God had taught them during the week. Every night I had prayed that they would listen and hear from God. I had prayed that their earbuds would be stuck in His Word and that it would play through their mind. Two of the boys sitting with us said that while at camp they listened, and heard from God. They were learning what His voice sounded like. You talk about wanting to shout! God had told me what to pray for and He let me see it answered while I was eating my cereal at 8:00 in the morning with sleepy boogers in my eyes!
Y'all, God is good. And He is so stinkin real. And He is solid. He is not made of the wind that the turbulence of the world creates. He is what we stand on. HE is our solid rock that CANNOT be destroyed.
King Nebuchadnezzar's kingdom, glory, domain, and everything else that was his on the face of the earth was knocked out from under his feet.
Daniel 2:31-35
“Your Majesty looked, and there before you stood a large statue—an enormous, dazzling statue, awesome in appearance. 32 The head of the statue was made of pure gold, its chest and arms of silver, its belly and thighs of bronze, 33 its legs of iron, its feet partly of iron and partly of baked clay. 34 While you were watching, a rock was cut out, but not by human hands. It struck the statue on its feet of iron and clay and smashed them. 35 Then the iron, the clay, the bronze, the silver and the gold were all broken to pieces and became like chaff on a threshing floor in the summer. The wind swept them away without leaving a trace. But the rock that struck the statue became a huge mountain and filled the whole earth.
The statue, what was built by man, crumbled. Fell and shattered. But the rock, the Kingdom of God grew. A statue will fall. And it can only be so big. But what the heck can you do with a mountain? A mountain isn't about to fall and shatter to pieces. That is how solid and real God is. All the world has to offer us is chaff, the leftover part of the wheat that has no use, function, or purpose that is going to be blown away.
But God is full of light! He has a desire burning inside of Him to talk to us. We just have to listen and we will hear Him. He created us on purpose for a purpose. A beautiful one! He wants to use us. With Him, we function at our full ability. Being with God, trusting Him, resting with Him, giving Him the thoughts that don't glorify Him, is how we hear Him.
He is listening.
Are you?
It is also the sweetest sound.
The best sound.
It is comforting.
It is challenging, often times asking me to do what I would rather not.
My flesh begins to fight. My gut says no.
My mind says, "This what God wants. DO IT."
My heart is willing because there with the Holy Spirit, it knows what is right.
He has taught to pray. Really pray.
At camp with our youth, I was privileged, and I mean really privileged, to witness over 100 students worshipping their Creator. They would raise their hands. Or bow their heads. Lie on the floor in reverence, or be on their knees in awe of their Savior.
As I stood in the back of the auditorium and looked and really saw what was happening in front of me, I couldn't help but praise God for what He was doing in the hearts and minds of these teenagers. Of the next generation.
As I stood and watched, I prayed.
I prayed that God would talk to them. That they would talk to God.
I prayed that they would listen.
And that they would hear from God Almighty.
And praise God, they did!
The last day of camp, as we sat half awake eating Cheerio's and pancakes in the dining hall, a staffer asked the students sitting at our table to share something God had taught them during the week. Every night I had prayed that they would listen and hear from God. I had prayed that their earbuds would be stuck in His Word and that it would play through their mind. Two of the boys sitting with us said that while at camp they listened, and heard from God. They were learning what His voice sounded like. You talk about wanting to shout! God had told me what to pray for and He let me see it answered while I was eating my cereal at 8:00 in the morning with sleepy boogers in my eyes!
Y'all, God is good. And He is so stinkin real. And He is solid. He is not made of the wind that the turbulence of the world creates. He is what we stand on. HE is our solid rock that CANNOT be destroyed.
King Nebuchadnezzar's kingdom, glory, domain, and everything else that was his on the face of the earth was knocked out from under his feet.
Daniel 2:31-35
“Your Majesty looked, and there before you stood a large statue—an enormous, dazzling statue, awesome in appearance. 32 The head of the statue was made of pure gold, its chest and arms of silver, its belly and thighs of bronze, 33 its legs of iron, its feet partly of iron and partly of baked clay. 34 While you were watching, a rock was cut out, but not by human hands. It struck the statue on its feet of iron and clay and smashed them. 35 Then the iron, the clay, the bronze, the silver and the gold were all broken to pieces and became like chaff on a threshing floor in the summer. The wind swept them away without leaving a trace. But the rock that struck the statue became a huge mountain and filled the whole earth.
The statue, what was built by man, crumbled. Fell and shattered. But the rock, the Kingdom of God grew. A statue will fall. And it can only be so big. But what the heck can you do with a mountain? A mountain isn't about to fall and shatter to pieces. That is how solid and real God is. All the world has to offer us is chaff, the leftover part of the wheat that has no use, function, or purpose that is going to be blown away.
But God is full of light! He has a desire burning inside of Him to talk to us. We just have to listen and we will hear Him. He created us on purpose for a purpose. A beautiful one! He wants to use us. With Him, we function at our full ability. Being with God, trusting Him, resting with Him, giving Him the thoughts that don't glorify Him, is how we hear Him.
He is listening.
Are you?
Wednesday, May 29, 2013
When Jesus talks to me in the sky
"Woop! The driveway's right here, hun," I thought to myself
as I drove down the familiar stretch of rode leading to my home.
Bumpy as ever, the wide, rock-paved piece of land welcomed me home at 11:30 pm.
Pulling through the gate and passing the rose bushes, I did something I do quite often.
I stopped.
With Carrie Underwood streaming the windows, I stuck my head out to look at the stars.
The sky was clear and like a lollipop does for a 4 year-old, the stars popped and shone with their brilliance.
They were showing off tonight.
I looked and looked.
Searched and searched the sky.
Where is it?!
The constellation I always like to find was nowhere to be found.
I saw the big dipper, the little dipper and lots of other gatherings of stars that I couldn't identify.
But I couldn't find it.
I couldn't find him.
Any time I ever look at the stars, I always look for Orion.
I tell myself it is okay to search the skies because it is teaching me to "look up to God."
But, when I actually do find Orion in the sky, I don't pray for my future special someone, or use it as a reminder to look to God and trust Him completely.
In my heart what's really happening is, "Ain't nobody got no time for that!
Get on the move, girlfriend."
My heart is fearful.
I am a daughter of God.
I am GOD's daughter. And He loves me as His daughter.
So why am I fearful?
There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love.
1 John 4:18
If He is my Daddy and He loves me more than my mind, body, and soul can even conjure up, why am I so stinkin afraid?
It stinks to be afraid. That is why He doesn't want us to be.
Tonight, God said, "He is not here. He will come when I want him to. Just like Orion appears in the night sky when it is his season, so will your man. Not when you want him to, but when I want him to. He will come during the season that I see fit.
No one else can make you what I want.
I am the artist who is designing you, and at the end of the day, I say what you will be because I. am. your. CREATOR."
But you are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation,God’s special possession, that you may declare the praises of him who called you out of darkness into his wonderful light. Once you were not a people, but now you are the people of God; once you had not received mercy, but now you have received mercy.
1 Peter 2:8-10
I need to be satisfied with Him!
Geez, He has chosen me, made me a royal priestess, part of a holy nation, His possession, called into the light.
I am of His people.
I have been given His mercy.
And so have you.
as I drove down the familiar stretch of rode leading to my home.
Bumpy as ever, the wide, rock-paved piece of land welcomed me home at 11:30 pm.
Pulling through the gate and passing the rose bushes, I did something I do quite often.
I stopped.
With Carrie Underwood streaming the windows, I stuck my head out to look at the stars.
The sky was clear and like a lollipop does for a 4 year-old, the stars popped and shone with their brilliance.
They were showing off tonight.
I looked and looked.
Searched and searched the sky.
Where is it?!
The constellation I always like to find was nowhere to be found.
I saw the big dipper, the little dipper and lots of other gatherings of stars that I couldn't identify.
But I couldn't find it.
I couldn't find him.
Any time I ever look at the stars, I always look for Orion.
I tell myself it is okay to search the skies because it is teaching me to "look up to God."
But, when I actually do find Orion in the sky, I don't pray for my future special someone, or use it as a reminder to look to God and trust Him completely.
In my heart what's really happening is, "Ain't nobody got no time for that!
Get on the move, girlfriend."
My heart is fearful.
I am a daughter of God.
I am GOD's daughter. And He loves me as His daughter.
So why am I fearful?
There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love.
1 John 4:18
If He is my Daddy and He loves me more than my mind, body, and soul can even conjure up, why am I so stinkin afraid?
It stinks to be afraid. That is why He doesn't want us to be.
Tonight, God said, "He is not here. He will come when I want him to. Just like Orion appears in the night sky when it is his season, so will your man. Not when you want him to, but when I want him to. He will come during the season that I see fit.
No one else can make you what I want.
I am the artist who is designing you, and at the end of the day, I say what you will be because I. am. your. CREATOR."
But you are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation,God’s special possession, that you may declare the praises of him who called you out of darkness into his wonderful light. Once you were not a people, but now you are the people of God; once you had not received mercy, but now you have received mercy.
1 Peter 2:8-10
I need to be satisfied with Him!
Geez, He has chosen me, made me a royal priestess, part of a holy nation, His possession, called into the light.
I am of His people.
I have been given His mercy.
And so have you.
Tuesday, April 9, 2013
How He Loves
The crickets have returned.
The sky was navy blue and Orion appeared to say hello.
The sun was gone and it was 8:53pm.
I walked down the driveway. I could only see it because I knew where it was at.
Crickets, an occasional horse-cough and my flip-flops were the only noises heard.
The only lights were those of the stars and the blinking tower across the road.
As I stood in the curve of the driveway and listened to whooper-wills and looked at the stars, everything was saying the same thing:
God has brought about spring once again!
The air smelled like grass and freshly plowed dirt ready for corn. My arms welcomed the 70 degree breeze that floated by. My feet were happy to show off their pink toes in my flip-flops.
Winter is ending!
God's voice is drifting through the woods saying,
"Wake up. It is time to dance and sing...for me!"
Thank you, Lord, that spring is coming! Thank you for the hope it gives us! Thank you for your faithfulness to us and the beautiful gift of spring!
The sky was navy blue and Orion appeared to say hello.
The sun was gone and it was 8:53pm.
I walked down the driveway. I could only see it because I knew where it was at.
Crickets, an occasional horse-cough and my flip-flops were the only noises heard.
The only lights were those of the stars and the blinking tower across the road.
As I stood in the curve of the driveway and listened to whooper-wills and looked at the stars, everything was saying the same thing:
God has brought about spring once again!
The air smelled like grass and freshly plowed dirt ready for corn. My arms welcomed the 70 degree breeze that floated by. My feet were happy to show off their pink toes in my flip-flops.
Spring is coming!
Winter is ending!
God's voice is drifting through the woods saying,
"Wake up. It is time to dance and sing...for me!"
Thank you, Lord, that spring is coming! Thank you for the hope it gives us! Thank you for your faithfulness to us and the beautiful gift of spring!
Wednesday, February 13, 2013
And the little boy was answered...
Once upon a time a brown eyed baby was born in an Army hospital in Kentucky. Shortly thereafter she moved to Florida. She lived there until she was twelve years old. She spent summers at Grandpa and Grandma's house in Georgia. They lived on a dirt road and went to a small Baptist church. Back in Florida she watched her dad build dragsters and paint flames onto hot rods.
She wanted run a service station and pump all the gas.
Then her dad, wanting to take his family to a safer place, moved the family to Georgia. She lived next door to Grandpa and Grandma when dad was through with their house. She had left everything she knew and that was all she wanted. Yes, the mountains are beautiful, but the beach and salt wind were her stomping grounds. She worked hard in school. She worked hard on everything she took part in.
She loved Biology. So she decided to become a doctor and live on the beach.
And then she met a young man with green eyes and calloused hands. He supported her and loved. He took her seriously. He loved her and she loved him, and his crazy family, in return. In this, she gave up her dream of living by the beach; falling asleep to the sound of the waves. She fell in love with a mountain man. It was cold December day and it was the evening of the 20th that they promised to love each other until they died.
She was in college learning how to become a teacher.
But she wanted to quite. She wanted to get a job at the bakery she drove past everyday. She wanted to have a baby. He didn't want her to quite and he wouldn't let her. He wanted a family too, but he knew it would come in due time. She didn't quite. And didn't have a baby, either.
And then she graduated and a year later fell in love with a swaddled-pacifier-sucking Christmas present.
She began teaching and taking her babe to the sweet little lady babysitter. Doesn't sound to hard, right? Three years later, right before the firecrackers started in July God gave her own firecracker right on the due date. She didn't want to leave another baby. She wanted to be with her babies. And her green-eyed hero granted her her wishes.
A little boy once asked a small girl what she wanted to be when she grew up.
The small girl answered, "Well, I want to be a nurse, a cook, a race car driver, a teacher, a hostess."
"There is no way you can do all that stuff!" was the little boy's response.
"A mommy is all of those things," is all the small girl had to reply to suffice the little boy.
My Mommy is all of those things and more, and my Daddy knows it. My Daddy loves her and she loves him.
I love you, Mommy and Daddy!
Love,
Leah-Joy.
She wanted run a service station and pump all the gas.
Then her dad, wanting to take his family to a safer place, moved the family to Georgia. She lived next door to Grandpa and Grandma when dad was through with their house. She had left everything she knew and that was all she wanted. Yes, the mountains are beautiful, but the beach and salt wind were her stomping grounds. She worked hard in school. She worked hard on everything she took part in.
She loved Biology. So she decided to become a doctor and live on the beach.
And then she met a young man with green eyes and calloused hands. He supported her and loved. He took her seriously. He loved her and she loved him, and his crazy family, in return. In this, she gave up her dream of living by the beach; falling asleep to the sound of the waves. She fell in love with a mountain man. It was cold December day and it was the evening of the 20th that they promised to love each other until they died.
She was in college learning how to become a teacher.
But she wanted to quite. She wanted to get a job at the bakery she drove past everyday. She wanted to have a baby. He didn't want her to quite and he wouldn't let her. He wanted a family too, but he knew it would come in due time. She didn't quite. And didn't have a baby, either.
And then she graduated and a year later fell in love with a swaddled-pacifier-sucking Christmas present.
She began teaching and taking her babe to the sweet little lady babysitter. Doesn't sound to hard, right? Three years later, right before the firecrackers started in July God gave her own firecracker right on the due date. She didn't want to leave another baby. She wanted to be with her babies. And her green-eyed hero granted her her wishes.
A little boy once asked a small girl what she wanted to be when she grew up.
The small girl answered, "Well, I want to be a nurse, a cook, a race car driver, a teacher, a hostess."
"There is no way you can do all that stuff!" was the little boy's response.
"A mommy is all of those things," is all the small girl had to reply to suffice the little boy.
My Mommy is all of those things and more, and my Daddy knows it. My Daddy loves her and she loves him.
I love you, Mommy and Daddy!
Love,
Leah-Joy.
Friday, February 1, 2013
Today I Am Grateful
I am not grateful everyday, but I should be.
Today I am very grateful.
Only thirty minutes away from my house in a valley, a tornado gave a party.
It danced and sang.
And it left a mess of destruction as a party favor.
Homes are gone.
The place where laughter, food, and goodnight-kisses were given,
are a heap of sadness and suffering now.
Work places are gone.
Where men and women provided for their families,
ate sandwiches with their friends, and stayed till after 5:00 when they didn't have to.
Nothing was taken from me.
My home is still here, my daddy is still working.
I thank God that we are safe. That our brown couch is still our brown couch.
The Avenger cups are still in the cabinet and my tooth paste is where it belongs.
If you were not touched by the tornado I hope that you praise God for that.
And ask Him what you can for those that were forced to host the party that it threw.
If you were touched, torn, or bruised and battered, I want you to know that I am praying for you and so are others.
I pray that God gives you strength, endurance to the end, hope, peace, and rest when you need it.
Today I am very grateful.
Only thirty minutes away from my house in a valley, a tornado gave a party.
It danced and sang.
And it left a mess of destruction as a party favor.
Homes are gone.
The place where laughter, food, and goodnight-kisses were given,
are a heap of sadness and suffering now.
Work places are gone.
Where men and women provided for their families,
ate sandwiches with their friends, and stayed till after 5:00 when they didn't have to.
Nothing was taken from me.
My home is still here, my daddy is still working.
I thank God that we are safe. That our brown couch is still our brown couch.
The Avenger cups are still in the cabinet and my tooth paste is where it belongs.
If you were not touched by the tornado I hope that you praise God for that.
And ask Him what you can for those that were forced to host the party that it threw.
If you were touched, torn, or bruised and battered, I want you to know that I am praying for you and so are others.
I pray that God gives you strength, endurance to the end, hope, peace, and rest when you need it.
Friday, January 25, 2013
Nine Strawberry Cookies
Friendship can't be explained on the rim of a picture frame with a few fluffy words.
Friendship isn't a couple movie nights and dress up parties.
Friendship isn't just texting and smiley faces.
Friendship isn't picking up the tab because you can.
Friendship isn't gifts and smooth-sailing.
Friendship is baking salted caramel oat bars and seeing the being joy in the midst of it.
Friendship is saying, "Lets eat at home and watch a Redbox. I'm broke."
Friendship is holding hands during Les Miserables and putting your heads together in the sad parts.
Friendship is bits of encouragement fused together by God to give you hope in the next chapter of your life!
Friendship is touching toes and being OK with it.
Friendship isn't a couple movie nights and dress up parties.
Friendship isn't just texting and smiley faces.
Friendship isn't picking up the tab because you can.
Friendship isn't gifts and smooth-sailing.
Friendship is baking salted caramel oat bars and seeing the being joy in the midst of it.
Friendship is saying, "Lets eat at home and watch a Redbox. I'm broke."
Friendship is holding hands during Les Miserables and putting your heads together in the sad parts.
Friendship is bits of encouragement fused together by God to give you hope in the next chapter of your life!
Friendship is touching toes and being OK with it.
“Friendship is born at that moment when one person says to another: "What! You too? I thought I was the only one.” -- C.S. Lewis
Friendship is nine strawberry cookies.
My friends, dear sweet ladies,
I praise God that you are my friends. I praise Him for giving me true friendship in you! I pray that God gives you the strength to face whatever this year may bring! Be it a trial you did not expect or a blessing you do not understand! Just like Paul told the people of Philipi, "I thank my God upon every remembrance of you."
Love,
Your Friend.
Wednesday, November 28, 2012
Happy Birthday, Mommy!
She is woman from whom grace and mercy flow
out of because she has been filled to brim with them. She washes, feeds, and
teaches all her children whether or not they are still at home. Her left arm is
stronger than her right arm from years of holding babies and toddlers. She
rarely ever paints her nails because it never stays on long in the dishwater.
Seeing her read her Bible in the morning, getting her strength from her Heavenly
Father, is a picture of peace. She has a laughter that starts at her toes, revs
up in her soul and then bursts through her lips. She is a mother figure to all
who love her. She is Deboo to some, Deborah to her friends, Momma Debbie to
many, and Mommy to me. She walks me to my car as I head out for school and asks
how she can pray for me that day. Just like the woman is Proverbs 31, my daddy
praises my mommy. She is woman who “acts justly, loves mercy, and walks humbly
with her God.” Micah 6:8 With a clean sink at 6:30 in the evening, she shows my
daddy, in just a small way, how much she loves him. That is where he likes to
wash his hands when he comes in from work so she has it prepared for him. My
mother is a beautiful woman. She is a woman who serves people with her soul.
She is woman that is mothering orphans. But because of her love and obedience
to her heavenly Father, they are no longer orphans.
I am blessed in a colossal amount to have this woman as my mommy!
Thank you, Lord, for bringing her into the world on this day! Thank you for making her my mommy!
I love you, Mommy! I hope you have had a wonderful birthday!
Thursday, November 15, 2012
She Is My Sister
She has hands that know the meaning of work, care and love. Her perfectly shaped and Austrian chocolate colored eyes seem to smile before her lips turn, but they have seen so much and pierced through the heart of her new family. Her plump lips aren't often in a smile. My Daddy had to teach her how to pick on him. She didn't like it at first but then it made her smile to poke him. She has waited on a forever family for four years.
When anyone else would have lost hope, she held on.
When anyone else would have wondered if they were ever going to get to go home, she had patience.
After seeing child after child and baby after baby go home with their mommies, she had faith.
After holding on, embodying patience and never loosing faith...
God has decided, in wonderful mercy, to give her to this crazy, Southern family that can't wait for her homecoming!
When anyone else would have lost hope, she held on.
When anyone else would have wondered if they were ever going to get to go home, she had patience.
After seeing child after child and baby after baby go home with their mommies, she had faith.
After holding on, embodying patience and never loosing faith...
God has decided, in wonderful mercy, to give her to this crazy, Southern family that can't wait for her homecoming!
Marigrace and Jim at a cookout hosted by their wonderful church!
Grandmother and Uncle Keith this spring
Noel and me at Christmas 2011
Hope with her spaghetti bread at Christmas
JubiLee teaching a friend/sister a piano song
Jesse, Will and JubiLee blowing balloons at Easter
Hope, Whitney-Faith and Marigrace "teaching" our friend, Jessie, to group waltz.
Marigrace coming home from New York!
And two of the craziest people in the world: My parents!
I thank God for the tenacity in the faith, their boldness in obedience and their love for life inside God's will.
Saturday, April 28, 2012
1979
I can't say enough about these two people.
They are strong, courageous, faithful...
gentle.
They never give up.
They never don't do what God wants them to do.
They. do. it.
Hard or not.
They love GOD,
they love people.
And they are my parents.
I don't know why God gave them to me,
but I am grateful He did.
I don't know where I would be
or
what I would do if...
God hadn't put them together in March of 1979.
And brought them here.
And made them my parent's.
Two people who have never given up on me.
Thursday, April 5, 2012
The Embodiment of Strength
That is what this little bundle of joy.
Strength.
She is full of hugs and kisses, ready to share, or to just give away and never, NEVER expect ANYTHING back.
She is full of hope and perserverance.
She trusted and loved strangers that she embraced as family.
She didn't give up when she didn't understand a word we were saying, "What in the world is this spaghetti stuff you are feeding me?" is what she was probably thinking.
But she ate our food, she gave her hugs annd kisses to us; her hope spread out and filled our hearts.
She has taught me how to be Christ's hands and feet. How to wash the dishes and sweep the floor with spunk.
She laughs and you can't help but laugh with her.
She is a child; she is my sister. And oh, how grateful I am God gave her to me. Why he chose her to love me, I don't know but I am thankful for her!
We have our older sister/little sister moments but thats part of being sisters. We are kind of like sandpaper for each other. We rub off the rough spots on one another. She dances wether in a ballet outfit or jeans and we dance with her (or both).
How beautiful on the mountains are the feet of those who bring good news, who proclaim peace, who bring good tidings, who proclaim salvation, who say to Zion, “Your God reigns!”
Isaiah 52:6-8
Thursday, March 29, 2012
My Hero

I sure that many of you know, have met or at least heard me talk about my precious Grandmother. That just what she is: precious.
pre·cious
1. of high price or great value; very valuable or costly: precious metals.
2. highly esteemed for some spiritual, nonmaterial, or moral quality: precious memories.
3. dear; beloved: a precious child.
4. affectedly or excessively delicate, refined, or nice
All of those definitions are just what Grandmother is. But not only is she precious but she is a saint in God's Kingdom. She is always encouraging other believer's by sending them cards, letters, or a phone call. A couple weeks ago this 91 year old beauty took a fall while coming in her back door after pitching out her scraps to the neighbors dog after supper. Thankfully someone was there soon after it happened. She journeyed to the E.R. and didn't get back home until 2 AM. She bruised her face and both legs. Her face and legs look much better now but its her arm that I envy your prayers for. There is a bone in her right arm just below her shoulder that is broken. Being 91 her docter doesn't want to have to do surgery, (which is a good thing) but he said he will take up to 3-6 months to heal. Along with her arm in a sling her legs ache every night.
But do you know what she is still doing? Sending sick people cards, calling people she knows can't get out. Everything she did before she is still doing; with a broken, bruised arm and acheing legs she is still:
reaching out to people,
loving them,
not giving up,
smiling, laughing,
and
being. my. hero.
She is brave and beautiful. Short and full of smiles. Loving and ready for a laugh. Honest and full of hope. content. peaceful. easy-going. a person that embodies Winston Churchill's ever famous qoute
"Never, never, never give up."
She is my Grandmother.
She loves me.
She is my hero.
Sunday, January 22, 2012
Romans 13:14
The thought of starving something out, let filling a need or at times even a want, can seem harsh, brutal, irrational. In some cases that is true, but not always. I have been struggling with something spiritually for a long time. The thought of making no provision for it never crossed my mind until tonight:
"But put on the Lord Jesus Christ, and make no provision for the flesh, to gratify it's desires."
I struggle with lust. It is really hard to admit that but its true. I didn't realize it until just here recently but I struggle with wanting to be in control and wanting to know what is going to happen in the near future. I struggle with being patient with my siblings and disrespectful to my Mommy and Daddy. That is definitely the hardest to realize. I think that one hurts me the most. It makes me so mad when I have a bad thought, when I worry about what I am going to major in in college. To me, as a Senior in highschool, soon to graduate, I should have that question answered by now but I don't! When I am short with my sibling's or disrespectful to my parent's I always feel so stupid afterward. I need to remember "to make no provision for the flesh." To do nothing that would gratify MY fleshes desires.
This week, it is my prayer that in those times to "make provision for my flesh," that I will remember what Isaiah said,
"Look to the Lord and be saved..."
I don't know why I was prompted to write this but something did. I pray that this week you will be encouraged. As I try to remember to "Look to the Lord and be saved," I pray that you will also!
Wednesday, November 9, 2011
Psalm 18
This morning I was able to spend some time with my daddy. I got up before the sun and joined him in his run to the filling station before work. He filled his work truck up and bought us breakfast. I love spending time with my daddy. He is a gift. Having a daddy that loves you and encourages you is a gift that cannot be compared to anything. I love my daddy. When he comes home after working 12 hours in the woods it is not an uncommon occurrence to see him playing baseball with the boys and who ever else wants to join in. Daddy is a stubborn and strong man. He has always been patient with the 7 women that he lives with, soon to be 8. I am blessed and proud that I can say that my daddy is a example of Christ to me. He sacrifices all he does so that we can have the life we have. Daddy has always lifted me up; he has always encouraged me and been patient with me. He taught me how to argue, he taught us all how to. As little ones when we would learn to say "yes" he would say "no," and vice versa. He has taught me so much, about life, about persevering and doing what I know is right even if so many others think otherwise. That's what he has done his whole life, the next right thing. And to me, he is a great father because of the example he is following: Our Heavenly Father.
God is Father to all those who will call him such. He wants to protect us, at times, discipline us when need be, just like our earthly father, and ultimately, He loves us unconditionally . I know that there are more daughters in this world then I could count that do not have a father like mine. I can't imagine the emptiness that would be the result from that. But, I do know one thing, God, The Creator of the Universe, is your Father. He will protect you when you cry out to Him! Your voice will reach His ear and He will rescue you, He has stooped to make you great and He will walk in front of you with His Saving Shield. Let Him be your Father and walk with Him. Like my Mommy has said, "His plan is our protection."
1 I love you, Lord. You are my strength.
2 The Lord is my rock, my protection, my Savior.
My God is my rock.
I can run to him for safety.
He is my shield and my saving strength, my defender.
3 I will call to the Lord, who is worthy of praise,
and I will be saved from my enemies.
4 The ropes of death came around me;
the deadly rivers overwhelmed me.
5 The ropes of death wrapped around me.
The traps of death were before me.
6 In my trouble I called to the Lord.
I cried out to my God for help.
From his temple he heard my voice;
my call for help reached his ears.
7 The earth trembled and shook.
The foundations of the mountains began to shake.
They trembled because the Lord was angry.
8 Smoke came out of his nose,
and burning fire came out of his mouth.
Burning coals went before him.
9 He tore open the sky and came down
with dark clouds under his feet.
10 He rode a creature with wings and flew.
He raced on the wings of the wind.
11 He made darkness his covering, his shelter around him,
surrounded by fog and clouds.
12 Out of the brightness of his presence came clouds
with hail and lightning.
13 The Lord thundered from heaven;
the Most High raised his voice,
and there was hail and lightning.
14 He shot his arrows and scattered his enemies.
His many bolts of lightning confused them with fear.
15 Lord, you spoke strongly.
The wind blew from your nose.
Then the valleys of the sea appeared,
and the foundations of the earth were seen.
16 The Lord reached down from above and took me;
he pulled me from the deep water.
17 He saved me from my powerful enemies,
from those who hated me, because they were too strong for me.
18 They attacked me at my time of trouble,
but the Lord supported me.
19 He took me to a safe place.
Because he delights in me, he saved me.
20 The Lord spared me because I did what was right.
Because I have not done evil, he has rewarded me.
21 I have followed the ways of the Lord;
I have not done evil by turning away from my God.
22 I remember all his laws
and have not broken his rules.
23 I am innocent before him;
I have kept myself from doing evil.
24 The Lord rewarded me because I did what was right,
because I did what the Lord said was right.
25 Lord, you are loyal to those who are loyal,
and you are good to those who are good.
26 You are pure to those who are pure,
but you are against those who are bad.
27 You save the humble,
but you bring down those who are proud.
28 Lord, you give light to my lamp.
My God brightens the darkness around me.
29 With your help I can attack an army.
With God's help I can jump over a wall.
30 The ways of God are without fault.
The Lord's words are pure.
He is a shield to those who trust him.
31 Who is God? Only the Lord.
Who is the Rock? Only our God.
32 God is my protection.
He makes my way free from fault.
33 He makes me like a deer that does not stumble;
he helps me stand on the steep mountains.
34 He trains my hands for battle
so my arms can bend a bronze bow.
35 You protect me with your saving shield.
You support me with your right hand.
You have stooped to make me great.
36 You give me a better way to live,
so I live as you want me to.
37 I chased my enemies and caught them.
I did not quit until they were destroyed.
38 I crushed them so they couldn't rise up again.
They fell beneath my feet.
39 You gave me strength in battle.
You made my enemies bow before me.
40 You made my enemies turn back,
and I destroyed those who hated me.
41 They called for help,
but no one came to save them.
They called to the Lord,
but he did not answer them.
42 I beat my enemies into pieces, like dust in the wind.
I poured them out like mud in the streets.
43 You saved me when the people attacked me.
You made me the leader of nations.
People I never knew serve me.
44 As soon as they hear me, they obey me.
Foreigners obey me.
45 They all become afraid
and tremble in their hiding places.
46 The Lord lives!
May my Rock be praised.
Praise the God who saves me!
47 God gives me victory over my enemies
and brings people under my rule.
48 He saves me from my enemies.
You set me over those who hate me.
You saved me from violent people.
49 So I will praise you, Lord, among the nations.
I will sing praises to your name.
50 The Lord gives great victories to his king.
He is loyal to his appointed king,
to David and his descendants forever.
2 The Lord is my rock, my protection, my Savior.
My God is my rock.
I can run to him for safety.
He is my shield and my saving strength, my defender.
3 I will call to the Lord, who is worthy of praise,
and I will be saved from my enemies.
4 The ropes of death came around me;
the deadly rivers overwhelmed me.
5 The ropes of death wrapped around me.
The traps of death were before me.
6 In my trouble I called to the Lord.
I cried out to my God for help.
From his temple he heard my voice;
my call for help reached his ears.
7 The earth trembled and shook.
The foundations of the mountains began to shake.
They trembled because the Lord was angry.
8 Smoke came out of his nose,
and burning fire came out of his mouth.
Burning coals went before him.
9 He tore open the sky and came down
with dark clouds under his feet.
10 He rode a creature with wings and flew.
He raced on the wings of the wind.
11 He made darkness his covering, his shelter around him,
surrounded by fog and clouds.
12 Out of the brightness of his presence came clouds
with hail and lightning.
13 The Lord thundered from heaven;
the Most High raised his voice,
and there was hail and lightning.
14 He shot his arrows and scattered his enemies.
His many bolts of lightning confused them with fear.
15 Lord, you spoke strongly.
The wind blew from your nose.
Then the valleys of the sea appeared,
and the foundations of the earth were seen.
16 The Lord reached down from above and took me;
he pulled me from the deep water.
17 He saved me from my powerful enemies,
from those who hated me, because they were too strong for me.
18 They attacked me at my time of trouble,
but the Lord supported me.
19 He took me to a safe place.
Because he delights in me, he saved me.
20 The Lord spared me because I did what was right.
Because I have not done evil, he has rewarded me.
21 I have followed the ways of the Lord;
I have not done evil by turning away from my God.
22 I remember all his laws
and have not broken his rules.
23 I am innocent before him;
I have kept myself from doing evil.
24 The Lord rewarded me because I did what was right,
because I did what the Lord said was right.
25 Lord, you are loyal to those who are loyal,
and you are good to those who are good.
26 You are pure to those who are pure,
but you are against those who are bad.
27 You save the humble,
but you bring down those who are proud.
28 Lord, you give light to my lamp.
My God brightens the darkness around me.
29 With your help I can attack an army.
With God's help I can jump over a wall.
30 The ways of God are without fault.
The Lord's words are pure.
He is a shield to those who trust him.
31 Who is God? Only the Lord.
Who is the Rock? Only our God.
32 God is my protection.
He makes my way free from fault.
33 He makes me like a deer that does not stumble;
he helps me stand on the steep mountains.
34 He trains my hands for battle
so my arms can bend a bronze bow.
35 You protect me with your saving shield.
You support me with your right hand.
You have stooped to make me great.
36 You give me a better way to live,
so I live as you want me to.
37 I chased my enemies and caught them.
I did not quit until they were destroyed.
38 I crushed them so they couldn't rise up again.
They fell beneath my feet.
39 You gave me strength in battle.
You made my enemies bow before me.
40 You made my enemies turn back,
and I destroyed those who hated me.
41 They called for help,
but no one came to save them.
They called to the Lord,
but he did not answer them.
42 I beat my enemies into pieces, like dust in the wind.
I poured them out like mud in the streets.
43 You saved me when the people attacked me.
You made me the leader of nations.
People I never knew serve me.
44 As soon as they hear me, they obey me.
Foreigners obey me.
45 They all become afraid
and tremble in their hiding places.
46 The Lord lives!
May my Rock be praised.
Praise the God who saves me!
47 God gives me victory over my enemies
and brings people under my rule.
48 He saves me from my enemies.
You set me over those who hate me.
You saved me from violent people.
49 So I will praise you, Lord, among the nations.
I will sing praises to your name.
50 The Lord gives great victories to his king.
He is loyal to his appointed king,
to David and his descendants forever.
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