"Woop! The driveway's right here, hun," I thought to myself
as I drove down the familiar stretch of rode leading to my home.
Bumpy as ever, the wide, rock-paved piece of land welcomed me home at 11:30 pm.
Pulling through the gate and passing the rose bushes, I did something I do quite often.
I stopped.
With Carrie Underwood streaming the windows, I stuck my head out to look at the stars.
The sky was clear and like a lollipop does for a 4 year-old, the stars popped and shone with their brilliance.
They were showing off tonight.
I looked and looked.
Searched and searched the sky.
Where is it?!
The constellation I always like to find was nowhere to be found.
I saw the big dipper, the little dipper and lots of other gatherings of stars that I couldn't identify.
But I couldn't find it.
I couldn't find him.
Any time I ever look at the stars, I always look for Orion.
I tell myself it is okay to search the skies because it is teaching me to "look up to God."
But, when I actually do find Orion in the sky, I don't pray for my future special someone, or use it as a reminder to look to God and trust Him completely.
In my heart what's really happening is, "Ain't nobody got no time for that!
Get on the move, girlfriend."
My heart is fearful.
I am a daughter of God.
I am GOD's daughter. And He loves me as His daughter.
So why am I fearful?
There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love.
1 John 4:18
If He is my Daddy and He loves me more than my mind, body, and soul can even conjure up, why am I so stinkin afraid?
It stinks to be afraid. That is why He doesn't want us to be.
Tonight, God said, "He is not here. He will come when I want him to. Just like Orion appears in the night sky when it is his season, so will your man. Not when you want him to, but when I want him to. He will come during the season that I see fit.
No one else can make you what I want.
I am the artist who is designing you, and at the end of the day, I say what you will be because I. am. your. CREATOR."
But you are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation,God’s special possession, that you may declare the praises of him who called you out of darkness into his wonderful light. Once you were not a people, but now you are the people of God; once you had not received mercy, but now you have received mercy.
1 Peter 2:8-10
I need to be satisfied with Him!
Geez, He has chosen me, made me a royal priestess, part of a holy nation, His possession, called into the light.
I am of His people.
I have been given His mercy.
And so have you.
