the wind and the rain

Here lately God has really changed my heart. As I read what I wrote a while ago, my cry to God, I realized that He has done what I asked of Him. Isn't it amazing when God does that. That He can do it so gradually that you don't even notice it? I love it when He does that!

Thank you Lord,
For changing my heart. For being patient with me and having mercy on me.

I wrote prayer during a great storm in my life and it has been amazing to listen to God tell the wind to stop blowing and the waves to be still in my heart. Sometimes, like the picture above I have little ripples, but, they aren't ripples of anger like they used to be, they are ripples of sadness and pity. And the amazing thing is, He is there and then they are calm and peaceful again and He lets me know, that I need to pray.

How can I not worry about anything?
Show me how to hide under the shadow of your wings
Heal my heart so that I can hold me arms out open
Help me to forgive and forget
And never look back again

Some say that's just how it is
Why does it have to be this way?
Please let us all be home one day
Don't let us be separated anymore
By miles, burned bridges or wars

Help me to love others and be of help
Use me in a way that your light will so shine
Help me tell others that love is here
That you are Yahweh and always near
That it is okay to mourn and shed a tear
God, I know that this will be tiring, but it must be done.
I do it in hopes that it will inspire a reunion

Some say that it can't be done
That it will always be this way
Please, bring us all home today
Don't let be separated anymore,
By miles, burned bridges or wars.

The the end is in your hands
Please give us strength to stand
Help us, as your children to stand with You in all we do.

While I'm Waiting

As you can see I have made some changes to my blog. The name, my "about me" and my music. This past year God has REALLY changeed my heart. For such a long time I wanted to be a nurse and work at the hospital, and even though that is what I wanted to do I was still not sure how I would be a mom too. Well, that was because I was not in the Lord's will. In June of 2008 I did the most important thing that I will ever do. I gave my life to the Lord! He has changed me so much and I am so thankful! He has changed my heart now, to where, even though I have no idea where I am going to college, what I am going to major in or anything like that, He has given me a peace that I would not take anything for because I know that if I am in His will He will take care of me and I will be safe! Now, that I am no longer wigging out over getting sciance and math perfected because I know that nursing is not what He has for me to do. My love for cooking has been able to grow, my love for my Daddy and Mama and my whole family, my love for babies and kids, and most important, my love for Him and my relationship with Him has been able to bloom! And I don't want it to change! It is so amazing! I am so thanful that He has saved my soul from the lake if fire called hell and that He wants to be MY father! I hope that I never get over my salvation. I am now trying to have peace with the unknown, do what I need to do now, when I have time prepare myself for whatever He has for me to do. I am so glad that He has changed my heart. Now all that I want to do, if it be His will, is get married, have a family and raise my children for Him! And I think that He has put that on my heart.

It is so interesting to see the ways that God chooses to teach us things. I don't think that I am a very patient person, but through this, He has taught me patience. He is ALWAYS teaching me to use my mouth for Him and not to show off with my witt. Sometimes things that I think up as a reply to something someone has said, to worldy standards, are very witty, but, in no way would they honor God. He is teaching me to just SHUT my mouth and let the Spirit tell me what to say or, just to not say anything at all!

Sometimes while I am waiting I get scared. What if I don't get married, what I go to the wrong college, major in the wrong, or just do something COMPLETELY out of His will. Then I realize that all I am doing is worrying and doing so is a sin! Even though I am just in the ninth grade and know that I need to wait and that God will send him I wonder if I will get married because I don't have boyfriend right now. So many girls my age have a boyfriend, and sometimes I just feel sorry for them and then sometimes, I want to be like them because it seems easier. God has helped me so much in giving me a peace that if I do wait and put ALL matters into His hands He will do "exceedling, abduntely, far more then I could ever imagine!" And I am so glad of that! I have no idea what I would do without Him. He has helped me to become a set apart woman for Him.

Thank you all for reading this and I don't know why, but I just really felt like God had me write this for someone. I have no idea who, but, I hope that it has helped someone. Giving my life to the Lord is the best thing I will ever do, and it is the best thing ANYONE can do because, God loved the world so much He sent His only Son so that We would not be eternely seperated from Him, and to this day, He loves us just as much as He loves His Son Jesus! WoW!! That IS AWESOME!!! That is indescribable!

May you be blessed by our Merciful Savior!

Elisabeth Elliot once said,

"The preoccupations of young women don't seem to change much from generation to generation. But in every generation there seem to be a few who make other choices."

I am reading book now that is called, "Set-Apart Femininity", written by, Leslie Ludy. It is all about becoming the women that God created you to be. Portraying the beauty of the Lord and not the worlds. When I read what Mrs. Elliot said, it really hit me. I want to one of the few, like the Marines, "The Few, the Proud." That is what I want to be like, except I don't want to be proud, I want to show the world that the joy and beauty from the Lord will last FOREVER and that it is fulfilling, that it will never run out! It will always be satisfying and that you will never thirst. I want to be one of these few young women with hopes that maybe, with the Lords help, through example, other young women will want to be come a part of this wonderful circle! I want to be a part of the few young women in the world who want to be modest, a part of those who treasure their virginity, one that is glowing because of the Lord, not some immortal pleasure that as a shadow.

Please pray that I can become a young women like this that is honoring to the Lord. That I may be an example to other young women in my community and beyond!

Thank you all for always being there for me and being such awesome examples of loving mothers, caring, obedient wifes, and amazing sisters!!!!!

God Bless,
Joy.